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brin_bellway[cw: amnesia, poverty, anxiety, probably venting]
Today I reached the part of my WordPress formatting where I had to face this post, and its *twelve* broken links that I can do nothing about.
(Not counting the "sometimes he joins us" one, which is also broken but which the Internet Archive happened to pick up in time.)
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I know, I know, I've done a lot. Fifteen-year-old me had backups good enough to shrug off an abruptly broken laptop†, and I've only gotten better since. And if I made that post today I'd know how to handle it better, how to construct it more robustly. This won't happen again, at least not so easily.
It's still...sad, I guess? I don't know, I don't tend to conceptualise my emotions as "sadness" very often. Things that sadden other people mostly tend to make me angry and/or scared, or so I think of it.
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Between [annual car insurance] and university and just a dip in income, I've burned through half of my meagre stockpile of money this month.
As always, when one aspect of the world is dangerous in a way that I can do little about (at least in the short term), I cope by making it safer in other aspects. I find other needles and daggers in the armory of Damocles over my head, take them down, put them away. Bit by bit, the world is made right. Every post that I fix, every story I preserve, is a little shard of pain resolved.
Yesterday I went and learned how to rip DVDs. I'll have to wait a few more applications of Moore's Law before it's feasible for me to keep my entire DVD collection with me (I think 2 TB would suffice: I'm not a heavy consumer of video), but I wanted to know how and also I think I *am* ready, storage-space-wise, to keep virtual backups of my CD-ROMs.
(and God knows I've had enough CD-ROMs break over the years)
I'll probably finish the WordPress first, though. I've had this particular sword over me for thirteen months, and I want it gone.
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I can see the way the world should be. It will be beautiful, and it will be mine.
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†"All I lost were the Nethack games (I'll have to investigate into means of backing-up those as well), so I don't feel that sad; just a bit shocked."
Today I reached the part of my WordPress formatting where I had to face this post, and its *twelve* broken links that I can do nothing about.
(Not counting the "sometimes he joins us" one, which is also broken but which the Internet Archive happened to pick up in time.)
---
I know, I know, I've done a lot. Fifteen-year-old me had backups good enough to shrug off an abruptly broken laptop†, and I've only gotten better since. And if I made that post today I'd know how to handle it better, how to construct it more robustly. This won't happen again, at least not so easily.
It's still...sad, I guess? I don't know, I don't tend to conceptualise my emotions as "sadness" very often. Things that sadden other people mostly tend to make me angry and/or scared, or so I think of it.
---
Between [annual car insurance] and university and just a dip in income, I've burned through half of my meagre stockpile of money this month.
As always, when one aspect of the world is dangerous in a way that I can do little about (at least in the short term), I cope by making it safer in other aspects. I find other needles and daggers in the armory of Damocles over my head, take them down, put them away. Bit by bit, the world is made right. Every post that I fix, every story I preserve, is a little shard of pain resolved.
Yesterday I went and learned how to rip DVDs. I'll have to wait a few more applications of Moore's Law before it's feasible for me to keep my entire DVD collection with me (I think 2 TB would suffice: I'm not a heavy consumer of video), but I wanted to know how and also I think I *am* ready, storage-space-wise, to keep virtual backups of my CD-ROMs.
(and God knows I've had enough CD-ROMs break over the years)
I'll probably finish the WordPress first, though. I've had this particular sword over me for thirteen months, and I want it gone.
---
I can see the way the world should be. It will be beautiful, and it will be mine.
---
†"All I lost were the Nethack games (I'll have to investigate into means of backing-up those as well), so I don't feel that sad; just a bit shocked."
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