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Jul. 20th, 2019 12:22 pmCurrently in the process of forcing my sleep schedule back. For now I'm doing 45 minutes: 11:45 - 8:15 instead of 12:30 - 9.
I want to stop having to negotiate with the exam centre every time I take an exam (they normally do external exams at 9:30 AM, and I can't do a 9:30 AM exam that far away without being too sleep-deprived to exam properly). I want to take a step closer to availability for 9 - 5 internships. And I'm pretty sure that somewhere in my brain, half-buried under a lifetime of habit, is a love of mornings, and it would probably be good to embrace that even if it *weren't* practically useful.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, the actual sleep part of it worked pretty much immediately but *everything else* is a struggle. There's a whole web of associations and routines that needs to be re-done. What times should I eat? Study? Exercise?
I can't just uniformly shift everything back 45 minutes, since some aspects of my schedule are dependant on other people's schedules and those haven't changed. Do I need to add an extra snacktime to account for dinner being 45 minutes later relative to most other things? Or rather, I guess I should move one of the later snacks up, since the total amount of waking time in the day is the same. Where do I move it to? And should I eat dinner 45 minutes earlier on days where everyone else is at work and there's nobody to coordinate with, or would that instability just make things worse? (It would probably just make things worse.)
I've been in a bad mood the past couple of days, and while it's mostly manifesting as to-do-list anxiety I suspect this is the root cause (or at least a major factor; the awkward period where [it's a bit too early to start studying for the exam, but if I move on to the first post-midterm chapter I'll have to take weeks off from it for the exam studying, so there's not really a point in doing any schoolwork at all right now] can't be helping). Can't wait to have a routine again, and one with room for fun.
I want to stop having to negotiate with the exam centre every time I take an exam (they normally do external exams at 9:30 AM, and I can't do a 9:30 AM exam that far away without being too sleep-deprived to exam properly). I want to take a step closer to availability for 9 - 5 internships. And I'm pretty sure that somewhere in my brain, half-buried under a lifetime of habit, is a love of mornings, and it would probably be good to embrace that even if it *weren't* practically useful.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, the actual sleep part of it worked pretty much immediately but *everything else* is a struggle. There's a whole web of associations and routines that needs to be re-done. What times should I eat? Study? Exercise?
I can't just uniformly shift everything back 45 minutes, since some aspects of my schedule are dependant on other people's schedules and those haven't changed. Do I need to add an extra snacktime to account for dinner being 45 minutes later relative to most other things? Or rather, I guess I should move one of the later snacks up, since the total amount of waking time in the day is the same. Where do I move it to? And should I eat dinner 45 minutes earlier on days where everyone else is at work and there's nobody to coordinate with, or would that instability just make things worse? (It would probably just make things worse.)
I've been in a bad mood the past couple of days, and while it's mostly manifesting as to-do-list anxiety I suspect this is the root cause (or at least a major factor; the awkward period where [it's a bit too early to start studying for the exam, but if I move on to the first post-midterm chapter I'll have to take weeks off from it for the exam studying, so there's not really a point in doing any schoolwork at all right now] can't be helping). Can't wait to have a routine again, and one with room for fun.
