Date: 2020-01-16 03:51 pm (UTC)
brin_bellway: forget-me-not flowers (Default)
From: [personal profile] brin_bellway
>>when I get in the mood to act like that I also often totally lose perspective as to what things are actually worth the suffering to do.<<

The thing I'm working on right now is something that's been bothering me for a long time, and while the awareness varies in acuity it is pretty much always there.

It's hard to feel *enough* gratitude for the results of previous occasions, but I think it is only in the way that it's always hard to feel properly grateful for an absence of pain.

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>>I could always just rip them from the CDs again. Except now they're two continents away.<<

Have someone else rip them for you and put them in a shared Google Drive or similar?

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>>Also do you want a hug? If so *hugs*.<<

I finally coaxed my work schedule for the week out of Meta-Boss, and I've got three days in a row of tight deadlines and intrigue to look forward to. I suppose it beats not getting paid, but still, I could do with a *lot* of hugs.

(We had a good work environment when I started there, but I always knew that--even with our relatively low employee turnover--there was a chance I would outlast that environment, and I did. Most current staff members are plotting against most other staff members: in particular, *both* New Manager and Meta-Boss have had it out for me since I tried to [rat the former out to the latter regarding attempted food-safety violations] back in August.)

((Today I ordered a(n audio-only) personal dashcam (not *solely* for this reason, but it was a major contributor), though using recordings from that is definitely a last resort: if any dirt on them gets back to corporate, there's *no* way they won't either figure out or assume that it was me, and that sounds like a fast-track to a permanent one-shift-per-week restriction (the closest Meta-Boss ever gets to firing people, AFAICT). Can't keep a roof over your head on one shift a week. On the bright side, there's a feedback mechanism: the more severe and frequent my shift restrictions are, the more time I have for studying, the faster I graduate and can start looking for another job. I can only hope being an accounting clerk is as peaceful as [all the people complaining about how boring it is] claim.))
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